A Sad First

I was on the homestretch on the fill and laid it out to look at it as a whole.  And I realized that I absolutely HATE how this fill looks.

I have liked this fill on smaller bits of background, but disliked some of the odd long line sections that turned up instead of the grid.  At first I though it was me being picky.  But the more I did, the less I liked it.

I have been ripping stitches out for the past 4 hours.

I have never been so unhappy quilting ever.

I have never before considered taking the stitching out.

Sigh.